Of course, still the same. Damn it.

Ignore it. Ignore it. Ignore him.
Ignore the tension, ignore the consciousness. Ignore it.
Ignore the ambivalence, ignore your feelings. Ignore it.
Ignore your trembling, ignore everything connected to it.
Reorientate yourself. Look at the people, listen to them.
Breathe the clean air deeply in. Wait, until the heart slows. If it won't - ignore it.
Don't let yourself be fooled, don't let this evening be spoiled. Ignore it.
Focus on your surroundings, on the voices, on the music. Pass over each sign of his presence. Ignore it. Ignore him.
Let it happen, let it work just this one time. For your own sake. For the future will be a lot easier after it.
Detach yourself from the past. Replace him.

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“By three methods we may learn wisdom:
first, by reflection, which is noblest;
second, by imitation, which is easiest;
and third, by experience, which is the most bitter.”
14.10.11 14:37